Sweet & Sour

Watching this video...and not just listening to this song, but feeling it, makes me so excited to know that one day someone will be calling me Sugar. The feeling of love and passion from this song feels so pure & true. Love that has no bitterness, or turmoil. No regret, no questioning. Theres nothing unsure about it. Its 100% pure true love. This actually makes me feel the love she is sharing. I have felt this at some point. In my cases it seems as if we cant have the sweet without the sour. Ive known the taste of sour way to long. It starts out sour, then becomes very bitter...then ends up just down right rotten! Nothing about love is rotten. True love is unconditional. Which means no matter what! Doesnt judge or point the finger. Doesnt expect, doesnt hold accountable...This kind of love I PRAY I will have one day! For me and my son! We have been taken advantage of and abandonded and abused for far to long. We are precious jewels. And we hold lots of value. I really hope a Godly man will know this with all his heart one day. And it will be pure, 100%, without question...For life!!! I may not be ready for that at the moment. But I know what I want and what I deserve! And I am determined to deliver nothing less than this to my son! To give him the family he has ALWAYS deserved!!! Were not the ones that have been missing out. The ones who didnt see or recognise our value are the ones who are missing out. They lost the treasure. I hold the grand prize. One day we will be discovered and will be safe in someones arms.

Just a Little Bit of Sunshine...

The weather around here has been very cold and dreary!!! Its been extremely cold with high humidity which makes the wind even colder and piercing at times! Makes it very difficult to stay warm! With all the snow, ice, and rain...its been very blah!! Everybody seems to be in a bad mood, and very negative! Were all sick of the cold. Sick of having to fight to stay warm. It takes a lot of energy to stay warm. Everyone is exhausted. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. Ive been needing sunshine and some warmer temperatures to put a little light on the subject ha. Today I woke up and it was sun shining!! Its almost as if I woke up a different person. Ive been renewed!! I have a better attitude, I dont feel all that bitterness and anger weighing me down anymore. Im sure theres a little bit of all that lingering around somewhere...but for the most part I feel so much better about me!! About my situation...Im feeling more confident about myself, ive gotten my head pretty cleared out! Ive been able to just sit and smile for no apparent reason. I feel joy!! And that makes me so happy! And it gives me reassurance and faith! And that makes me very excited about my near future. Things are about to get better! I dont know exactly how or why? But I cant wait! I feel like this will definitely help me as far as getting along with people and being able to trust them a little more. Ive been so reserved with getting to know anyone its ridiculous! But not anymore! Theres a few things I want to accomplish to gain a little bit more confidence in myself, but I know that will come in time as well. I got to spend a lot of much needed time with my son today. Its been a really good thing. We both needed it. Along with the sunshine and it making me feel better...I believe it made all of us feel better too! I got to wear my new shorts and flip flops today! And its still February ha ha! These warmer temps are doing wonders! Keep it coming Lord! March is just around the corner!

One of my biggest inspirations...

I know everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Where im from individuality isnt something thats really encouraged. Ive always had a different style. I usually have to make sure my outfits or my attitude is more subtle than I would like it to be, to be accepted as a "normal" around here. I like color and I like bold! I like to stand out! Ive been classified as crazy, bitch, psycho, stuck up, spoiled, selfish, and I could go on and on. But I believe that what makes you, you should be something worth showing off and celebrating. On the days I just say screw it! Im wearin this! And I will have this attitude!! I either will get stared at like im a freaking alien or I will eventually piss somebody off and the situation will be turned into something it shouldnt be!! One of my favorite artists is Lady Gaga. Soo many people around here call her a sick individual!! I hate that when people see something different they automatically frown upon it and turn it down. You cant be so narrow minded!! Have an open mind about everything and take time to get to know before judging! For those of you who wonder why Gaga is something worth praising...watch this video. Shes soo in tune with who she is and the woman knows what she wants!! She is very deep and I love that!!

So I got a new Blog today...

Well, im obviously still in the beginning stages of this whole blogging thing ha ha.
But I thought this might be a good outlet for me! Im a single hard workin mama in a
VERY small town where everybody knows everybody and everything about you...or should I say me! Seems everywhere I go now, something gets started or taken the wrong way and some sort of drama starts. I really think if I had a camera crew follow me around it would SELL!! The Hills dont have any drama compared to this ha ha!! I hope to either get advice, made fun of, laughed at, praised or whatever you feel about the things I will be posting. And I want to post all the very eventful things that happen to me an a daily basis. LOL theres always something to say!!

But for now im going to continue setting up this thing and I will be gettin back!
Peace